Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Jehovah Elyon

"My hearts aches for you my God
My soul waits for you my God

I've come far to find you here
In this place will I draw near...

And your spirit soars with me
To the highest heights

From where I'll not look back
I'll keep trusting you

For I know
You are faithful
My God

For I know
My God"

(I cannot explain or begin to describe the absolute adoration I have for my God!)

Not a lot too say but I felt like writing something :)
I... have been restless.
Like I am on the edge of a 'Faithcliff' but am not sure where or when I am supposed to 'leap' and I am excited and anxious and nervous and... restless.

Pray for me. I'm also a little scared! 

Confident that I am in the palm of my God, it is in me that I lack confidence. 
Do I have it in me to achieve what He has prepared?
I know I do. I know it. He would not have called me if it were not mine.
So what am I freaking out for?
Fear of failure
"...for I know, You are faithful my God..."
"...and your Spirit soars with me, to the highest heights
from where I'll not look back
I'll keep trusting You..."

Oh, man! It is a scary place for me.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Here we are!

Psalm 139: 07-18

I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence!
 If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
 even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.
 I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night—
    but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
   To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.

 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body 
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
      Your workmanship is marvellous—how well I know it.
 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, 
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
 You saw me before I was born.
      Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
   Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
      They cannot be numbered!
I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!
   And when I wake up, you are still with me!


Beautiful nieces who adore my son and love having a giant for an Uncle.
(Oh I love that frown!)

Our little Diva! She is a package of exuberance and life of the party. Creates her own fun, independent. And yet she is also happy to sit and draw and wait...

Keeps us all on our toes! Adorably loving she greets you with an excited squeal before throwing her arms around your legs. Premature birth hasn't stunted her capacity to love!

Chocolate Muffin - a sweet surprise, too cute for words, she does not hold onto her affection, she will shower you with giggles and cuddles (well - sometimes she needs a little persuading!)

My big brothers littly, I donot know her so well but I love her just the same.
She is beautiful like her ma but loves to chat like her pa. I love to see traits.

The newest little beauty she is incredibly observant and again sooooo loving. I shall call her a snuggly monster, she is deliciously cuddly, moreishly kissable.

These two are my cousins! Quite different from each other, the oldest loves to learn and values order. Her sister is a mama's girl. Again both are loving, generous and kind with their time and with their affection.

On the right is my cutey cousin - growing up with the nieces, another sweet addition to the whanau, these two and the youngest above are all the same age.

We also have a male addition (same age as the three girls) but I can't find any photos of him :o(

Oh here he is... not the most flattering. I don't really know him either.

Every life a miracle. I am thankful because for a long time there was only one. My son.
Slowly but surely God has blessed us with increase, and it is a joy to behold!
Truly makes my heart glad! Gorgeous little versions of us, only better!
I believe that God would pour only the best of us into new life. These honeys are testimony!

More thoughts

"...I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." John 10:10

My husband received a promotion and we moved to Hawkes Bay five years ago. 
I was rather relaxed about the whole thing considering how much I rely on and love my family. 
And I was leaving my Bestest. I didn't drive at that stage, I was a little anxious thinking about moving to a new place where I knew no-one. I didn't have a job either. I was aware of these 'problems' but strangely at ease. 
Arriving was another story.
Things were very different. I wasn't used to seeing mob (gang) members walking around town proudly patched up. 
I wasn't used to walking past Maori in the street and they didn't look me in the eye or acknowledge me. Actually, I was disgusted. When I said 'Kia ora!' and they still didn't acknowledge me, keeping their eyes on the ground. 
I complained to my mother about that! Lots of other things, people are quite cliquey and I noticed a lot of what I called 'small town thinking' as if nothing else existed outside of Hawkes Bay. 
The service was awful (it still is) You could walk into a store, slowly do two or three laps of the shop and not have a single assistant actually assist you or even acknowledge you are there. When people bump into you they carry on walking like nothing has happened. Again, no acknowledgement. It was a shock to the system. Actually when we first moved here I was yelled out of two stores by the owners! 
Literally walked in the door and told to "Get out!" 
I have assumed prejudice was the factor because seriously the only thing you could assume about me could be based on my skin colour, right? Or maybe  they were weightist. Lol.

Anyway, life has been a steady journey here. I have walked it rather casually, meandering along the path. 
Taking the scenic route my Dad would say. Predestined. 
I thought we had made a rather foolish mistake at first - how could I be called to such a place? 
"You often see a need, because you are called to fill it." 
Hopelessness is a killer. It is easier to think change can not happen, then it is to hope that it will. 
It is easier to believe that you cannot make a difference than it is to believe 
"Every great change in history started with someONE, somewhere!"
To own being: "...the change this world needs!"
God bankrupted heaven when he sent Jesus Christ.
He did this for me. But it is not mine alone. Christ died for all.
I need to live with more purpose!

Friday, July 2, 2010

What would you say?

There's a page on Facebook called "A Message To My Moko"

"Psalm 34 : 
I will praise the Lord at all times.
   I will constantly speak his praises.
I will boast only in the Lord;
   let all who are helpless take heart.
Come, let us tell of the Lord’s greatness;
   let us exalt his name together.
I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me.
   He freed me from all my fears.
Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy;
   no shadow of shame will darken their faces.

I love you. More than anything I pray that you encounter God.
I pray that you know Him. That you are in communion with Him.
That you love Him wholly."

I'm certain I would say more. Like how gorgeous they are, I would share fond memories, tell them how proud I am, share similarities I see between them and their father. It is important that they know God.