Saturday, March 27, 2010

God is so good.

I should really go to bed, but the Hope of God outweighs my tiredness.


Sorry for the burden of my last post. I have had a long week, but not a battle like the past few. I have tried not to 'think' (or overthink, as is my tendency) about things and just live. And love what I am living. 
I want the best of all that God has for me.
I am so thankful that I can sing. 
Worship must be my favourite thing to do!

Well for those of you who don't go to my Church (and that is like... all of you, lol) I wrote a song last year:

In You God, 
I find my strength in You.
In You God, 
I find my rest in You.

In You God I find my strength,
In You God I find my rest,
In You God. In You.
My hope is found in You
There's no substitute
All I need I find in You, Lord!

I will wait on You - You're all I want. You are all that I need.
I will run to You - my goal, my prize. My everything.
I will rise with You - On Your Word I stand

I am not defeated!
I will stand strong!
I will not be shaken!
I will overcome!

It is my first - I hope it will be my battle cry forever. "I will wait on You..." 

I'm going to talk to God about writing a song out of the song He sang over me.
I know I am not the only one that God sees and I am confident I am not alone in needing to hear it.

I'll keep you posted as to how I get on.

Thursday, March 25, 2010


"Show me Your ways
That I may walk with You
Show me Your ways
I put my hope in You
The cry of my heart is to love You more
To live with the touch of Your hands
Stronger each day
Show me Your way" Hillsong

Everything in my life has seemed hazardous recently. Raw. Explosive to touch. Scary.
I've been on guard for what might happen next.
I have battled my way, to this day.
I am not alone. Many battle alongside me. Actually, more correctly, they fight in parallel to me.
I have talked to a number of people 'going through a tough time' but
'they don't want anyone to know' or 'they don't need any help'

My question is: Where do we draw a line in the sand?
How hard does it get before we turn. How long do we wait or battle before we seek each other out for:

And how do we open up to each other when we are often afraid of feeling or experiencing the vulnerability of our situation? Of being so exposed.

I don't know about you but in Church or at home I sing things like:

"I have decided, I have resolved
To wait upon You, Lord." Hillsong


"Here I stand in need of You
I reach to You my Saviour" Equippers

Yet, when tough times come, is my immediate inclination to my Rock and my Redeemer? 
Sadly, too often, no. 
I try to fix it myself. I KNOW. Me. Broken, bruised, rattled and hurt, trying to fix myself.

As I worshipped on Sunday, trying not to cry (people have questions when you cry and they give you that 'look' of sympathy *shudder* Anyway...) God sang a song over me. I was determined, hardened even, to not backing down. Determined not to be the first to apologise. Determined. Stubborn. Yet God sang over me. And what He sang was loving. And generous. "I see you. I always see you. I love what I see, I created you to be free. Live for Me. Love for Me. Forgive for Me. Rest in Me. Rejoice in Me."

This is our God. Jehovah El Roi. This is our God. El shaddai. Adonai. Rapha. Shalom.

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus. 
Look full in His wonderful face. 
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim. 
In the light of His glory and grace."

Monday, March 15, 2010

Hope Restored

Hello Blog Beauties!

I love this from the book of Luke 21 vs 15: "For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict." 

We've wanted another baby for the past nine years but late last year, I gave up. I was tired of waiting and hoping and praying and failing. 
This morning I Googled the meaning of (the name I had chosen for my next boy) Joshua: Jehovah is generous. Jehovah saves and just like that - hope restored. I spent the rest of my day with the biggest grin thanking God for all He has given me.
Blessed in the city, blessed in the fields, blessed when I come and blessed when I go.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Just a couple of pics...

I have decided I like crown lynn milk jugs!

First purchase
You can't really see it in the picture but the detail, incredible, hand painted, this is my fave.

This one too - it has a platter to match

Red and white roses

(couldn't rotate this....)

Got this gorgeous bowl from The Big Fella's Granny I LOVE IT he tries to get rid of it.

What would you call this.... Maoriana maybe, lol
I love titoki bottles, am pretty blessed to have three of them in such good condition.
They used to hold some sort of liquer made from the titoki berry - I understand they are being reproduced but there is nothing like the original.

Pania Lamp - so good right, especially when I live in HB

Not sure who this is but he's pretty cool as well!

Well, sorry I haven't anything profound to share.

Will try and get something out before the weekend hopefully :)

Po marie!